Saturday, December 23, 2006

Happy Holidays

So, I've been pretty much spending all my spare time with the new boyfriend. Christmas day we will have been going out for exactly 1 month. Sometimes I think about it and it seems like we've been going out way longer, like I've known him way longer, other times, I can't believe it's been a month already. Time has been going so quickly.

We have similar days off. He works 10 hour shifts, so he has Monday Tuesday and Wednesday off, I have Tuesday and Wednesday off, so he meets me at work when I get off on Monday, and we do something in town, then go to my house, and he stays with me until Wednesday, when we head back into town, do something, then go hang out at his house until way to late at night, then I come home, and get nowhere near enough sleep and start my work week off ass tired. I love every minute of it.

We laugh a lot when we're together, and just have a lot of fun in general. A girl at work made a comment to me that she thinks we seem more like best friends than like we're a couple. I really liked that comment. Of course, she only sees us interact on the work floor. She doesn't see all the making out and cuddling and hand holding. We are totally one of those couples that you see and they make you want to puke. Generally, we're only like that when we're alone though, not when we're hanging out with friends.

I also like that we actually go out and do stuff. So far, we've gone to 1 movie, played pool twice, and gone bowling twice. We've also gone out to eat more often than I care to mention lol. I'm absolutely crazy about this guy. He makes me feel great, and makes me laugh and makes me smile and I feel completely comfortable and at ease with him. I am constantly looking forward to the next time I get to see him outside of work. Which is in this case tomorrow.

Tis the holiday season. The season of eating too much Turkey, and holy crap is that ringing true this year. THREE turkey dinners for Kyle and I! Last night we had Turkey Dinner with his parents and brothers. Christmas day we are going to his Grandmothers for Turkey Dinner and Boxing Day (Day after Christmas in Canada) we are having yet another Turkey Dinner at my parents house. Just to mix things up a little, on Christmas Eve, I am going to Kelowna to have Chinese Food with my two sisters and my nephew. I'm pretty psyched for it all. I just wish I didn't work so much if it. I work every day, including Christmas. I get off at 4pm on the 25th and have the 26th and 27th off.

Well speaking of work, it's time for me to go to it. I hope you all have a wonderful holiday season full of love and presents.

Monday, November 13, 2006

I Need a Life!

I miss people! Okay, now granted that sentence sounds odd as I work at a place where I am surrounded by tons of people all day long, but that doesn't count! Sure, I work with lots of people, and sure, I see my sister at least once most days, and I stop by my parents a couple times a week, but that's not what I miss.

I miss spending time with a good friend in a non work environment. My social life, outside of family members has been lacking somewhat. Heather, Kyle and I went for drinks last week, and that was pretty fun. That is once in 2 months though. Heather and Kyle are both people that I actually want to hang out with outside of work, however they live an hour and a half away from where I live, and our shift end times are 2 hours different. Makes it hard to hang out outside of work too often, which blows pretty hard! On the bright side though, my sister has been talking a fair amount about wanting to move to the town Heather and Kyle live in, so that wouldn't break my heart.

I guess, living with Adrienne I got spoiled. For a while, her and I where working similar shifts, so we'd hang out every night. We'd go for a drink, or we'd just chill out at home and chat.

Wednesday, November 8, 2006

Marjor Life Change

As of two days ago, Kyle and I are no longer a couple.

We had a really long talk the other night, and decided mutually that we're probably better off as friends. At some point, I think we already became that, but neither of us really noticed. Neither of us was unhappy, but we weren't ecstatically happy either. We ran out of small talk. If it wasn't a major issue, we had very little to say to one another. We also have very different interests. In fact, about the only common interest we have is movies and reading. I want a “typical” life. I want to get married and have a couple kids and get up every morning to go to a job. Kyle loathes the concept. He doesn't want kids, he doesn't want a “normal” job, he wants to go and try strange things in strange place. He wants to live in a huge city, I want to live in a small town. He wants to live in Manitoba, I can't leave B.C.

I know we made the right choice, but it still makes me sad sometimes. I'm really glad that it was mutual though, and that there is no animosity on either of our parts. He is still planning to come out and visit me, and we've talked since breaking up and it isn't awkward at all.

I don't view the past 2 years as a waste, or our relationship as a failure, I simply view it as having changed. We have both changed as people the past few months. Neither of us is the person the other fell in love with, and neither of us is the person the other lived with. The people we where when we met where in love and everything was great. The people we became when we lived together, had resentments and fought all the time. The people we are now, have new lives and are better suited as friends.

Saturday, November 4, 2006


Well, today was an odd day to say the least. It started out just fine, work was good I was only one customer shy of my daily goal.

I knew things where about to do a 180 when I stopped quickly by my parents, and my dad says to me “You're going to need a hug” and gives me a hug. As much as I love hugs, no conversation that starts that way is going anyplace good! Turns out, that we've been evicted again. Pretty sweet huh? Considering the fact that I can hardly afford food only paying $200 a month for rent and utilities, this should be interesting. I get the impression from my sister, that we are moving even if we are once again unevicted. She's had enough of this crap.

Next I talked to Kyle on the telephone. I made a suggestion, and he agreed that it was a good idea. So, we are postponing the wedding. Last time he moved out to BC things went very wrong, so we've agreed that maybe it is best to work on keeping things running smoothly next time he comes to BC without the added pressure of saving the money to get married etc. So much has changed since we got engaged, that it is best to make sure things will work before getting married, as opposed to getting married and then finding out if things will work.

Lastly, I inadvertently insulted someone who I actually like a lot! I was picking on her in regards to a certain subject, and as it turns out, it's a sensitive subject. She's putting on a brave face, and making the best of a less than perfect situation, and she is doing so well, that I didn't even realize it was a soft spot. Once I realized I had offended her, I was quick to apologize, and I truly do feel bad for it. She's a great girl, and I really like her, the last thing I ever wanted was to hurt her feelings or insult her.

It's pretty sad really, when work is your escape. You're time and place to be able to laugh and not worry about all the bad things going on in your life. That is what my work is right now. I can just laugh and joke around with my coworkers and for a few hours not stress out about all the crap in my life that seems to be falling down around my feet. Some days I just don't feel strong enough to pick up all the pieces. I will though, I always do.

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Points to Ponder

I'm in a little bit of shock today. I was talking to Kyle today, when he announced, rather flippantly, that he has decided he is never having children. Apparently, observing his friends children has brought him to the conclusion that kids are noisy, annoying and expensive.

I'm sure that the behavior has nothing to do with the source of the offspring. The one chick is on kid 3, with guy 3, before age 15 and has a habit of ditching the kids with whoever she can whenever she can. The other couple with kids, is married, he is bisexual, they are both permitted to fool around with other people as long as there is no vaginal intercourse, and they have on at least one occasion, left their kid with grandma and grandpa in order to attend an orgy.

Now me, I want children. In fact, it is number 56 on my list of things about me. Until Kyle told me he never wants them, and I was forced to think about how I felt about that fact, I never realized how important it is to me to have kids. However, I can't coerce, force, trick, or guilt Kyle into having kids. He would just wind up resenting me for it in the end.

So, I guess him and I have to discuss the matter, and both of us have some thinking to do. He has to consider how serious he is about never wanting kids, and I have to consider how important it is to me to have them.

The part that sucks the most, is that we can't even talk about it for a while, because our schedules just don't match up correctly. So, in the mean time, I will think, panic, stress, freak out and think some more. Good fun.

Monday, October 30, 2006

Never Mind

We're not moving after all. Turns out the landlord was just pissy about a high hydro bill. Well it wouldn't be so high if they would fix our fucking furnace so we didn't have to use electric heat. But anyways, he calmed down and said if we started paying half the hydro we could stay. Since rent is on 300 total, we're staying.

Sunday, October 29, 2006

On The Move

Our landlords have decided that it's too much work for them to run this place as well as their other property. So, they want to hire a farm hand. The farm hand, would get to live where we live now. That means we have to find a new home.

This sucks!

The one bright side to all this, is that we're going to move closer to both my sisters work and mine. The money we save on gas each month, will make up for the extra we have to pay in rent.

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Weekend (Sorta)

I had an awesome “weekend”. I don’t care what days of the week I have off, it’s my weekend. I went and stayed a couple nights at my sisters for her birthday, and got not nearly enough sleep. The first night I was there, I wound up staying up until after 1am, then woke up around 7:30 and was up for the day. Last night I stayed up until after midnight playing video games with my nephew and had to get up to come to work at 6:30. I feel just a wee bit tired today. I got “enough” sleep, but not as much as I usually do.

Yesterday, Lori and I pretty much just chilled. We hung around the house, watched TV, surfed the net and chatted. After Scott got home from school, the three of us went out for dinner. It was really good food. Would have been even better if Scott had have paid attention to prices and not ordered a $28 entrée. His came to more than Lori and mine did combined! Shesh, teenagers! Hehe We all made ourselves a bit ill after eating a entire 8” Ice Cream Cake from DQ.

Scott and I get along pretty good, and both like video games and trying to kick each others ass at snowboarding and surfing etc. This is a very good thing since at the end of the month I’ll be staying with him for a few days while Lori goes out of town for Christmas shopping.

I got some pretty freakin’ awesome news today when I got to work. Made having to work while being ass tired all worth while. Work did a 50/50 draw to raise money for the first ever set of conjoined twins born in British Columbia. I won! I actually bloody won! I never win anything, I’m so stoked. I got $300!

I have to say, that between spending time with some of my family on my days off, and getting a $300 return on my $5 investment…. I had a pretty damn good weekend.

The only bad news I have today, is that I feel like shit. Not “didn’t get enough sleep” bad, but sick bad. My throat is killing me, I looked in the mirror in the bathroom and my throat is all swollen, my uvula is actually sitting on the back of my tongue. It kills every time I swallow. However, on the bright side, $300 will buy me lots of lozenges!

Friday, October 20, 2006

So I Was Wondering........

At work, I sit near Timbra, Barika and Kyle. On his break, Kyle was talking to Timbra and made some comment about activities of a sexual nature with another guy. Now this is not the first such comment I have heard. So, at lunch, I asked Timbra if Kyle was gay. She said she didn't think so, because he'd seemed to really enjoy it when she took him to the female stippers a couple months back. Barika agreed that she didn't think he was gay either. However, neither of them was possitive.

After lunch, I was the first one back, so it was just Kyle and I at out cubicle block. So I ask 'Hey Kyle, you're not gay are you?' Turns out he isn't, but the whole situation and his reaction was rather hillarious. When Timbra came back from lunch he points at her and goes 'ask Timbra' so I tell him 'I did, she said she didn't think so'. Poor Timbra had no clue what was going on when he gaped at her and said 'you don't THINK so?' I told him that he should just be glad I asked instead of assuming he was gay and telling everyone.

Of course, being the kind of guy he is, he made jokes about his being gay all the rest of the shift. He seemed to get a kick out of telling just about everyone that I'd asked him if he was gay.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

I Robot

So, I got bored the other day, and messaged a few random people on ICQ. One of these people actually responded. User ID GGC which I have decided means that his name is Gustav Giuseppe Cokamukalik. Anyways, Gustav and I talked for a bit, he asked me what I did for fun, one of the things I responded with was reading. So, he asked me if I had read any good books recently. I told him I had recently read, the DaVinci Code, as well as Cradle and All. He indicated that he too had read DaVinci Code and enjoyed it and asked me about the other book. All in all it was a rather normal conversation. After a bit, we ran into an issue I've had before on ICQ.... I wasn't getting all his messages. It's a glitch I've noticed with ICQ, if someone is not on my contact list, I don't always get their messages. So, since I was enjoying the conversation, and getting annoyed by the glitch, I sent a request to add him.

He declined!

He said it was nothing personal, but that he was leery of adding bots to his ICQ list.... Bot? I come across as a bot? I mentioned this to someone else I was chatting with, and he speculated that Gustav was most likely confused by the fact that I use full sentences and relatively good grammar when chatting. I don't use the common net speak or lots of abbreviations. I start sentences with capital letter, I use commas and I end a sentence with a period. Anyways, the part I found the most odd, was that he said he wouldn't add me because he was relatively sure that I was a robot giving automated responses based on what he typed.... however he was “happy to keep talking” if I wanted.

So we talk for a while longer, about my work and his work etc. I use every chance possible to throw in a joke about me being a robot! After a while he asks me to do him a favor and go to a website and tell him what is written in the last balloon. He doesn't say as much, but I'm pretty sure that this is my final “are you a robot” test. Well the website doesn't come through, because I don't receive links from people not on my list, so I tell him that he has to disguise the fact that it's a link. He tells me to go to dieselsweeties with a 3x w and a dot com. I go to the site, which is a web comic and then type into the chat window “I'm still most of a person” he responds with “well most is good I guess lol” Then goes on with the conversation, so I'm like “um that was the line you wanted, the last balloon on the page” to which he replies “Okay, here's the thing, it isn't”

So I go back to the page and look, and nope, there are no more balloons anywhere on the page. I assure him that it is in fact the text from the last balloon. I tell him “there is a red head and a brunette talking about drinking, and red is drunk and brun. is giving her a hard time about it, and then in the last balloon red says “I'm still most of a person””

It's a bit before he says anything again. When finally he does he says “Wow do I have egg on my face” As it turns out, in the time between him checking the site, and me getting there, they updated to the new days cartoon!!! So a minute before when he was there, the last balloon read “More like the Quixoti Narcotic” but by the time I got to the newly updated site, the last balloon was “I am still most of a person”

I thought that was hilarious! What are the odds of that? I joked that he was a jackass, and he added me to his contact list haha.

That's what he gets for saying I have the conversational skills of an automated response program! hehe

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

My 100 Things

It's been a long time since I've updated my list of 100 things about me. In fact, I don't think I've actually done one on this particular site. Now, I would like all 3 of you who are reading this, that unlike most people I did not cheat. I notice a lot of people will use up 2 or 3 numbers to tell one thing. Pussies! Actually, I found it surprisingly easy to come up with this list. Not actually easy, but a lot easier than I expected, and a lot easier than it was last time. Anyways, here ya go.

1.My name is Erin

2.I'm a girl

3.I'm 25

4.I'm engaged

5.I live with my sister

6.I live in British Columbia

7.My fiancée lives in Manitoba.

8.I work for eBay

9.I love my job

10.I'm on the pessimistic side of realistic

11.Despite the above, I'm still hopeful about most things

12.I have no pets

13.I don't want any pets

14.I don't smoke

15.I don't do drugs

16.I do drink, but not often

17.I'm medicated for depression

18.I spent a lot of years trying to just “snap out of it”

19.I am not racist

20.I care what other people think of me

21.I do not think I am beautiful

22.I think I have a good sense of humor

23.I think I am smart

24.I am shy until I know you

25.I love movies

26.I almost always have music playing

27.I'm messy

28.I hate to clean

29.I like to cook

30.I like to bake

31.I can be a hypocrite

32.My friends are very important to me

33.I love to get mail.

34.If I could go back and change anything... I wouldn't

35.In some ways I am very emotional

36.In some ways I am very cold

37.I am nocturnal

38.I prefer to work mornings

39.I have no holiday spirit

40.Sometimes, I will stand my ground when I know I am wrong

41.I like bored games

42.I like to talk

43.I like to listen

44.I love long conversations

45.I hate having my words twisted

46.I used to speak French

47.I can find something beautiful about most people

48.I can be very passive aggressive

49.I find women to be very attractive, however I am in no way sexually attracted to them

50.I wish I was rich

51.I like the color green

52.I like the color of my hair

53.I am diabetic

54.I am very open

55.I hate keeping secrets

56.Someday, I want children

57.I like getting to know about new people

58.Stupidity annoys me

59.Naivety makes me smile

60.The people I care about the most in the world, know it

61.I tend to mask hurt feelings with humor

62.I have no negative feelings towards Americans as a people

63.I have a tongue ring

64.I have a tattoo

65.The only jewelery I wear consistently is my engagement ring

66.I love accents

67.I feel that online conversation is completely different with someone who's voice you have heard

68.I spend too much time on the Internet, and I'm okay with that.

69.I like to read

70.I miss my fiancée a lot

71.I take out my frustration on my fiancée even though I know better

72.I believe that everyone deserves to be loved

73.I believe most people deserve a second chance

74.I am not necessarily opposed to capital punishment

75.I have been working, successfully, on controlling my temper

76.I am generous

77.If I won enough money, nobody I care about would have any debt left.

78.I am having a small wedding

79.I am not wearing white because I think I will look ugly

80.I love to swim

81.I hate crowds

82.I would rather have 3 great friends than 100 acquaintances

83.I am disorganized

84.I am compulsive about certain things

85.I have a good vocabulary

86.I love television

87.One of my very good friends is someone I have never met in person.... yet!

88.I love helping people

89.I have 3 sisters

90.I have 3 nephews

91.My parents are still happily married after 44 years

92.I have no religious affiliation

93.I believe in God

94.I think I am a good person

95.I am often dry and sarcastic

96.I am drawn to people who have a similar sense of humor to mine

97.I'm bad at returning phone calls

98.I like to multi task

99.I like giving and receiving gifts without a special occasion

100.I need to know people love me in order to be happy

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Happy Birthday to Me

Well, it's official, I'm a quarter of a century old today. Perhaps it is a sign of maturity that I would rather stay home and have a quite evening with my family than go to the bar or to the casino or to strippers.

Bwahahahahaha Okay, anyone who bought that doesn't know me very well at all! Or know that staying home with my family is usually anything but quiet. Especially if you get my older sister Lori and I together. She was here last weekend for Thanksgiving, and we where both laughing until we had tears running down our faces. The rest of my family is pretty fun too. A couple weeks ago, I lent Lori, Season One of Desperate Housewives. At dinner, we're talking about it, and she asks me if I have Sex in the City also. Our conversation had been kind of excluding everyone else, at the mention of Sex in the City, my dad takes the opportunity to pitch in by saying “I don't remember, but I know I had sex in a tent once”. I threw a piece of broccoli at him!

The other truth is that if Adrienne was up in this area, we'd have used my recent days off to go out and get absolutely sloshed. She'd hit on sexy... hot... cute... mildly attractive... random guys, and I'd admire hot guys from a distance like the faithful finacee that I am.

Wednesday, October 4, 2006

Time for an Update

The first several weeks at my job where tiring. Lots of classroom training and a ton of information to try and absorb. Not to mention the whacked out schedule that flip flopped around.

Week 1 – 6:30am – 3pm

Week 2 – 3:30pm – Midnight

Week 3 – 9am – 5:30pm

Week 4 – 7:30am – 4pm

Now, thankfully, I have settled into my permanent shift. 7:30am – 4pm will be my shift until the next shift bid, in 3 months. When the shift bid comes up, the order of priority is based on a combination of our Attendance, Performance (how many customers we can help per hour), Customer Satisfaction, Quality (they grade 5 of our customer interactions per week) and Availability (How much of our shift we are at our desk ready to help customers). I'm a little nervous about the shift bid in 3 months. If I'm not doing well enough by then, I have up to as many as 50 people to contend with to get the shift I want. I have no doubts in my ability to be successful at this job, I'm just not secure in my belief that I will be good enough to get my preferred shift.

In other news, my car has been shit kicked. My sister was leaving my parents house in my dads truck, and she just hopped in the tore into revers without looking, without bothering to see that my car was parked where it always is, at the back of the driveway behind my dads truck. Plenty of room to go around... if you look. She hit my car so hard that it pushed it back a foot. The whole front was crumpled in. The major piss off about my car is the fact that now my front end is punched in, and since this winter my taillight is busted, but I didn't do either thing. My taillight was hit by someone last winter while I was parked at home, and my sister ran into my front end. Now, people see me driving this beat up car and probably wonder what the hell I hit, but I wasn't even NEAR my car for either incident. Oh well, my car is in at the body shop getting fixed right now, which means I have the joy of driving around my dads work truck. This thing is from the 70s or 80s, it's standard and it's HUGE. I pulled up to a building yesterday, and I got a little closer than I meant to, I kinda blocked anyone from walking around in front of my truck, well, then I get out of the truck and turns out I was about 4 feet from the building! Damn I'm not used to driving something so damn big!

My sister and I have been getting along pretty good, which is a big change from the last time we lived together. In the past few years we've both changed a lot. Celexa has mellowed me out, and GOD has mellowed her out. I see my parents a couple times a week, and have dinner at their house on Thursdays. It's so nice to be around my family again. My sister and nephew are coming out for Thanksgiving this weekend, I'm looking forward to that.

I'm working on talking Adrienne into moving up here. I figure I'll win eventually, since the only reason she gives to not move is “I can't afford it”. Eventually she'll be able to afford it. The way I see it, here, she is still close enough to drive home, it's prettier here, the weather is better here, I'm here, there is lots of work here, and she could save more money because her bills wouldn't be as high. I talked her into moving to Fort St. John while being honest with her about how much it sucked ass. Talking her into moving someplace nice should be easier!

Well, that's about it for now.

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Crazy Hours

Training at this new job feels like school. Week one was all classroom training, and we had a quiz each day. By the weekend, I was so tired I could hardly remember my own name! Check out my usual daily routine for last week...

5am – Wake Up

5:30am – Leave for Work

6:30am – Start Work (training)

3pm – Get off Work

4pm – Arrive at my parents

8pm – Leave Parents to go Home

8:05pm – Shower

8:20pm – Check E-mail

8:30pm – Read Book

8:35pm – Fall Asleep

I went to my parents every day after work, because I knew that if I went home A) there was no food and I am VERY poor right now B) I would fall asleep and either wake up at 9pm and not get back to sleep, or wake up at 2am ready for the day. The reading portion of my day would vary based on level of exhaustion. Some nights I stayed up as late as 9pm!

This week, my schedule is the exact opposite. I never see my parents and work is from 3:30 until Midnight and I don't get home until 1am.

As much as I hate getting out of bed at 5am, I do enjoy the social life that a 3pm end time allows me, so I believe that when the shift bid comes up, I will try very hard to get on a morning shift.

As my shift stands now, I have talked to Adrienne once since I started work, not knowing her schedule doesn't help in that matter. My friend Nikki has called me twice and gotten no reply from me, because when I am home she is at work, but I haven't been able to talk to her to let her know that so she probably just thinks I suck lol.

Monday, September 11, 2006

Big Ol' Jet Airliner

For years I thought the lyric was 'Big Old Jet Out Of Lino' and I just assumed that 'Lino' was the name of an American town, or an Airport someplace. Once I found out that I was wrong, I felt like a bit of a twit.

This made me feel better.... Click Me!

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Who Says You Can't Go Home?

Well the trip was certainly interesting, 11pm the first night, about 30 miles out of Prince George, where we where scheduled to stay the night, the ball fell off the truck and the U-Haul started dragging on the road. That was a pretty little light show. After a very expensive tow, we finally got to bed around 1am.

Day two was a lot less exciting. We left Prince George at 9:30. We had to pull over several times because my sister was insanly sleepy. Turns out that instead of an alergy pill, she took an anti-nausia pill before the trip. Grrrrreat!!! We got to my parents around 8pm last night. Talk about a long day in the car.

Good news though, I have a job! I sent out one resume last week, and had an interview with them this morning at 10am, and was offered the job. I will be working for Sutherland Global Services. They do support for E-Bay. So basically, I will be one of the people who closes down illegal E-Bay auctions and reads and replies to emails from E-Bay customers. I start work at 6:30 September 11th! That gives me a few days off to relax, but I won't be stressing out over needing a job. The only bad thing is the 6:30 start time, it's an hour drive to and from work, so I'll need to get up at 5am on days I work a morning shift. Yick.

Monday, August 28, 2006

Today's The Day

I am leaving Fort St. John today, and with a little luck, I will never be back. We are going to drive about 4 hours today, then stay the night at my sisters friends house, then tomorrow we will drive the remaining 8 hours.

I already have a job interview. Wednesday, I go in and interview at Global Sutherland. They are a call center that deals with both phone calls and email, and they hold the contract for Ebay. So basically, if I get the job (which I will) anyone who has to phone or email ebay with a problem, runs the risk of having to deal with me! I'm so excited, and I am so confident that I'll get the job that I'm not even nervous about the interview.

There are only two things I will miss about Fort St. John and that is Nikki and Vanessa. However, Nikki's mom and Vanessa's sister live in Kelowna, so it's not as though I will never see either of them again, just not as often. Thank GOD for Email and Telephones!

Well, it's about time to go get the U-haul. Everyone wish me luck in this horrid drive I'm about to make! 12 hours in a car alone, nothing to keep me company but my iPod! Booo!

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

A Different Kind of List

This list is a little less thrilling than the last. This is a list of all the things that have gone wrong in the 3 weeks since Kyle and I made the decision to move and he left for Winnipeg.

1) Monetary Support Fell Through

2) Job Kyle Had Lined Up Fell Through

3) Car Broke Down to the Tune of $934, Causing Me To Need To Both Cash In My Vacation Pay, but Also Take A $250 Advance Against My Final Paycheck

4) Need New Wheel Bearings Before Move ($100 - $150)

5) $400 Cell Phone Bill Due to Afghanistan Calls

6) Because of Car, Final Paycheck Will Cover ONLY Mandatory Bills, Leaving Moving Expenses 100% Up To How Much Kyle’s Mom Sends

7) Kyle Fainted During First Day at New Job. Trip to ER Revealed That He Has Life Threatening Sleep Apnea. Needs To Stay In Hospital 2-3 Days

8) Training At New Job May Be Rescheduled For September 1st. Meaning the $900 We Where Counting On From His Paycheck is Non Existent.

Monday, August 14, 2006

The List

Ok, so there is this episode of Friends, (Season 3, Episode 5) where everyone comes up with a Freebie List. This is a list of people (preferably famous) that they are allowed to hook up with without it being considered cheating… So, I decided to make a list of my own!

So, here is the list of 5 guys that I think are HOT, that Kyle can’t get mad at me if I sleep with! This is in no particular order!

Kenny Chesney

Channing Tatum

Tim McGraw

Paul Walker

Nick Zano

Note to Female Readers: Just in case you didn’t notice, there are two pictures of each of these guys, one linked to the first name and one linked to the last.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Bad Just Got Worse

So, last Wednesday, they ordered in my new alternator. I still hadn't heard anything more about my car, so I called today. Well, I guess they changed the alternator, and my battery which where both bad, and my car still doesn't run. AWESOME! $700 worth of shit done to my car and IT DOESNT RUN!!!

I can't afford the first $700, now, on top of that, I have to pay for them to figure out what is wrong with my car still, and then pay for them to fix it. Grrrrrrrrreat!

Silver Lining

Kyle got a call from Shaw Cable today. They have all the paperwork drawn up for him to sign. His first day of work for them is the 15th.

Wednesday, August 9, 2006


I've been a good girl so far. I've already packed 5 boxes and a HUGE tupperware bin of stuff. All my pictures and knick knacks (other than the few I missed and keep coming across) are packed up. All my DVDs are packed. I even packed one of my sets of dishes.

And yet...

I doesn't feel like I've done a damn thing. I look around my house and there is still SO much stuff to be packed. Blah, moving sucks serious ass!

On the bright side, unpacking shouldn't be too horrible. I've been very religious about marking on every box exactly what is in it. So we won't run into the fun issue of digging through 10 boxes to find something.

Did I mention that packing sucks? Anyone want to do it for me?

Saturday, August 5, 2006

The Good ,The Bad and The Ugly

The Good

Kyle got a job in Winnipeg finally! Maybe even two! He for sure has a job starting Tuesday, for Convergys, which is a call center that handles Tech Support for Comcast. He has worked for them before and didn’t enjoy it much, they micromanage, so you have to sign in and out when you go pee…. literally. He is also at the head of a short line for a job with Shaw Cable. If he gets that job, they pay better, they focus on having a “positive, fun and friendly” work place, and he could possibly transfer to Kelowna at some point. He really wants that job, but won’t know for sure until the middle of next week, and it wouldn’t start until the following Monday. So just to be safe, he’s going to go in to Convergys on Tuesday.

The Bad

The verdict is in on my car. I need a new alternator, a new alternator belt and a new battery. All that, plus an oil change is going to come out to around $700 when all is said and done. This really sucks because right now, between Kyle and I, I am the only one getting any money until the end of the month. So my paycheck has to feed us both, and my paycheck is only $754. So that works out to Kyle and I each getting $27. My 27 dollars has to not only feed me, but put gas in my stupid car! I think I’ll be cashing in my vacation pay!

The Ugly

Yesterday I got a $400 cell phone bill in the mail. I just about had a freakin heart attack! Turns out that $90 of that was overdue from our last bill, but still, $300 for one bloody month? Turns out, Kyle was making calls to his mom. He figured it wouldn’t cost much because he was just staying on the line long enough to tell her to call him back. Well, with international calls, there isn’t per second billing, it’s per minute. So, my phone bill contains about 25 one or two minutes calls to Afghanistan at $3.12 per minute. 31 minutes of calls at $3.12 a minute adds up to $96.72. Then once you factor in all the times he called me long distance during the day at 25 cents a minute…. Adds up pretty fast.

The Summary

We made all our decisions and Kyle moved off to Winnipeg based on us being able to save for a month as well as being given $2000 for the move. Once he got to Winnipeg, the job he had lined up fell through, my car broke down, and the $2000 turned into $600. It’s going to be a stressful couple of months coming up!

Thursday, August 3, 2006

Small Talk 101 - The Weather

The weather here has taken a turn for the worse. It’s been in the single digits (to you Americans, “the 40s”) for three or four days now, and the 5 day forecast shows it staying at a daily low of 6 (42) every day until Monday, when the low will be 9 (48). Ok, so I know what you’re thinking (I don’t actually, but wouldn’t that we pretty funky?) anyways, as I was saying… just because there are lows of 6 (42) doesn’t mean its not hot during the day…. It’s not! The highs range from 17 (62) to 21 (69) and it has been raining pretty much every damn day.

Isn’t the beginning of August supposed to be the HOTTEST time of the year? Lets have us look back at August 3rd, for a few years back and see what Fort St. John weather is usually like.

2005 – High 22 (73) Low 8 (48)

2004 – High 22 (73) Low 14 (57)

2003 – High 20 (68) Low 9 (49)

2002 – High 13 (55) Low 5 (41)

2001 – High 18 (64) Low 11 (51)

2000 – High 23 (74) Low 13 (55)

Ok, so maybe it isn’t just this summer. This place is just ass cold! What happened to Global Warming? Did it miss my town? On the flip side of that, lets have a look at the weather where I am moving next month….

Today – High 28 (84) Low 15 (59)

2005 – High 25 (84) Low 3 (39)

2004 – High 29 (85) Low 15 (59)

2003 – High 32 (89) Low 10 (50)

2002 – High 22 (71) Low 4 (39)

2001 – High 23 (73) Low 11 (51)

2000 – High 30 (86) Low 13 (55)

Slightly more summery temperatures if you ask me!

Sorry for this post about the weather, it was either this or do a post about my sex dream staring Kenny Chesney! That's what I get for going to sleep with the iPod on!

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Work Rant

I am so pissed off this morning. SO PISSED OFF!!! My boss points out every little error that anyone makes. Fine, he is the boss… but he screws up my office every freakin day. I do more than hotel at my desk, but that is it’s main function. There are a couple very basic things that have to get done when checking in a guest.

1. Print Out a Guest Registration Card

2. Run a Payment or Pre-Auth On Their Credit Card

3. Mark the Room Number on the Top of the Credit Card Slip

4. Record the Payment in the Computer.

This morning, Vanessa (my Brazilian roommate whom I am training to take over for me when I leave) and I arrive at work to find….

1 Room with no guest registration card

3 Rooms where the payment was not recorded in the computer

4 Credit Card slips with no room number on them.

The result of that was of course, that Vanessa and I had to hunt around to find out which payment went with which room. This tends to be a major pain in the ass. Especially since half the credit card slips where for the same amount.

Once that was taken care of, I look in the notebook on my desk. 5 inches below where I left a reminder note for myself about a payment due on Friday, there is a note in huge letters telling me not to forget to run the payment on Friday. Duh really? Below that is a note telling me to charge that room for a remote and a key. Well I already did that, and he was sitting right there when I did it, there was even a discussion on how much to charge for a remote control. I am not a moron, and yet I get continually treated like one simply because he smokes too much pot and can’t remember a damn thing.

He makes the same mistakes over and over and over and over and over again, and just kinda shrugs with a goofy grin, or says “oh that’s the last time, I promise” but if I make a mistake, it gets written up in the book. My favorite is, I go home before housekeeping. I work 6 hours a day and start at 8. So when I leave, there are rooms that aren’t done yet and rooms that I don’t know about yet etc. So, sometimes the computer isn’t updated because the info isn’t in when I leave. So then my boss won’t update the information either. He will leave me a note telling me that I “forgot” to do it the day before. Oh really now? I do NOT think so!

Then there is the guilt trip. Vanessa and I both get it when payday rolls around. “Oh my labor costs are too high, oh you should be grateful I pay you as much as I do” blah blah blah. Grateful? Grateful that he got me to quit my other job then 2 weeks later cut back my hours? Grateful that I got to stay at work 24/7 for 9 days while only getting paid for 6, and didn’t get any bonus or any meals provided or anything?

Reserved for me alone, is the comments meant to make me feel guilty about Kyle leaving with so little notice and about me leaving at all. About how he let me go visit my family when on salary you aren’t entitled to vacation in the first year. Well screw him. I’m not Kyle, so he can lay off about that. As for my vacation… it makes up for the fact that neither Kyle nor I where in any way compensated for the days (9 for me 11 for Kyle) that we where here 24/7 so that our boss could go on vacation.

I do feel bad about leaving him in a lurch, that is why I agreed to stay here until the end of September, however, if he keeps being a jackass to me, I’ll just leave at the end of August and he can kiss my pale white ass!

Monday, July 24, 2006

'Had A Bad Day Again'

It's been nothing but bad news the past few days.

First, Kyle's mom and step dad ordered their tickets to come out for our wedding next year. Well because of the time of year, the tickets cost more than they counted on, so they aren't able to give us as much money for moving as they had hopped. So we're going to need to come up with another $1000 on our own.

Second, this morning the company Kyle had a job lined up with called him. They found someone who had more certifications than Kyle and decided to give them the job instead. So now Kyle has no job.

Third, my alternator belt on my car is going. It will probably only cost $20 or $30 for a new belt, but there is a min 1 hour labor fee to add to that, so now we're looking at $100 or so. Not too bad considering what most car issues cost.

Here is the problem. Because our boss made Kyle pay back the bonus he was given, the total income for both of us, is only around $900 or so. This leaves me with JUST enough to cover my rent, my car payment and my car insurance. My student loan payment is going to bounce, and it's only $25. So forget doing anything like putting gas in my car (good thing I wont be driving it until it's fixed) or going out with friends, or buying groceries.

So, the gist of this story is... my life is falling apart at the seams and I'm ass poor. Woot!

Friday, July 21, 2006


We’re moving. The final decision was made while I was away on vacation. In October, Kyle and I are moving to Kelowna.

We talked his mom into paying for us to move, instead of giving us a honeymoon next year, and the plans are in motion.

We decided that the best option is for Kyle to accept a job offer he got in Winnipeg, paying $15 an hour. This way, he is earning more money before the move, and also, he isn’t going to move to Kelowna until I have us an apartment and I am working. This way it eliminates any issues such as both of us being out of work. At least one of us will always have a job. Plus, alone, there are several options for me while I am looking for a home and job, for both of us, the options are slightly more limited.

Kyle was due to leave this morning, however his friends showed up earlier than planned yesterday, so they wound up leaving around 6pm. I did fine right up until it was time to actually say goodbye. I was really surprised that I managed to not cry, and I am not as upset today as I worried I might be.

I think the reason I’m doing alright, is because I am keeping my focus on the bigger picture. In the end it will be best for us. Kyle will be making more money in Winnipeg, he will be able to start working more actively on getting into better shape and he will get to spend some time with his friends. This way he will be in a better place mentally when we move to Kelowna.

I’m not depressed, or distraught over Kyle going, but I’m still sad, and I’m very much going to miss him. I won’t see him again until October! So, like the song says, “Wake Me Up, When September Ends”

Wednesday, July 19, 2006


It’s been so long since I last posted, that I’m pretty sure nobody will even read this. Some people seem to post more when they get depressed. As though it is therapeutic for them or something. I am not one of these people however. When I’m bummed out, I don’t post at all.

Recently, I’ve been homesick like crazy as I mentioned in my last post. Well, I went home. I cashed in the bulk of my airmiles and I went to visit my parents for a week. It worked out perfect, I was showing up on the 10th, and I found out my sister Michelle was thinking of going up on the 9th. Once she found out I would be there, that solidified her decision to go. Neither of us told our parents we where coming, but our sisters Lori and Kristina where in on it.

Kristina was at my parents waiting, when the rest of us showed up, and we where all standing in the yard, and my sister Lori yelled for my parents to come see what happened to her car. The looks on my parents faces when they notices their missing two children (ok not missing, but from far far away) and nephews. My moms jaw dropped open so far I thought she was going to dislocate something and my dad had this goofy grin on his face and they both teared up a bit.

It was an awesome vacation, mostly we all just hung out. I played about a million games of Yatzee with my parents and Kristina after everyone else went home.

The worst part of the trip was having to come home. And I don’t just mean the way most people don’t want to leave vacation. I was loath to come home, I didn’t want to come back to this town, I didn’t want to come back to this job. I am so miserable here, all I wanted to do was stay where my family is.

Tuesday, June 27, 2006


These days I really want to move back down to where my parents and a couple of my sisters live. Most people get homesick when they leave home, then get over it. I'm the opposite. I was alright when I first moved here, but recently, I'm having a really hard time. It just about makes me cry a couple times a damn day. Every time I talk to my parents I hear about how much work there is down there right now.

The part that really sucks is that right now, I'm doing something I've always wanted to do, I'm making more money that ever before, I have a gorgeous home that I love, and a fiancée that I'm crazy about, but I'm not happy. I miss my family and I want to go home. I get a huge check on payday and all I can think is that if I didn't have so many bills I could use the money to move back home.

Kyle and I decided for sure today, that if for whatever reason the company we work for right now, goes south, so will we. We both work for a very new (in the pre-advertising stage) company. There is always the risk that it won't take off. Should that happen, Kyle is going to hit up his mom for the money and we're moving south down to where my family is! Period end of story!

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Lipstick In School

According to a news report, a certain private school in Washington recently was faced with a unique problem. A number of 12-year-old girls were beginning to use lipstick and would put it on in the bathroom. That was fine, but after they put on their lipstick they would press their lips to the mirror leaving dozens of little lip prints. Every night the maintenance man would remove them and the next day the girls would put them back. Finally the principal decided that something had to be done. She called all the girls to the bathroom and met them there with the maintenance man. She explained that all these lip prints were causing a major problem for the custodian who had to clean the mirrors every night.

To demonstrate how difficult it had been to clean the mirrors, she asked the maintenance man to show the girls how much effort was required.He took out a long-handled squeegee, dipped it in the toilet, and cleaned the mirror with it.

Since then, there have been no lip prints on the mirror.

There are teachers, and then there are educators.

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Hard to Believe

I can't believe that Adrienne is moving away in 2 and a half weeks. I'm glad that my schedule has been working out so that her and I can hang out more now. I'm going to miss her a lot once she moves. She doesn't have a lot of stuff outside of her bedroom, so it will be really strange because my house won't look any different, but my best friend will be gone.

Our lease runs out at the end of September, so Adrienne is still paying rent up until then, and Kyle and I are hoping that by September, we will have enough income that we don't have to move. I really enjoy my home, and I really hate moving. After a few months of paying full utilities, we'll have some idea of whether or not we can afford to add $300 a month to our budget.

Monday, May 22, 2006

Oh My God! Two Posts in a Week!!!

I actually had a day off today! It's a freaking miracle! Between my two jobs they try to make sure I work at least one job every day. I finally cut back my hours at the liquor store. I work at the liquor store 3 days a week now, all the other days I work at the Office.

But I guess I haven't even posted about my new job yet, so I will fill you guys in. I got a job working as Office Manager for a guy who runs a hotel and is starting up two additional business'. I am Office Manager for all three.

I love my new job, but my boss is a little scattered sometimes. He also tends to pull me into about 3000 directions at once. Mainly I just tell him to shut up and go away lol.

With all this work, my blogging as suffered. I'm sure both of you who still read this have noticed. And of course the other 3 readers who don't read anymore because of the lack of posting noticed as well!

I've been considering doing AudioBlog posts. It's quick and easy and I can do it from anywhere. When I type a post I have to actually thing about what I'm saying, but if I do an audioblog... well I almost never think before I speak!

What do the two of you think about that idea?

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

I'm A Messed Up Hooker Who Never Brushes My Hair!

What Are You?

Okay..Pick your Birthmonth:

you're a..

january- talented

febuary- lowlife

march- immature

apil- wild

may- exciting

june- weird

july- selfish

august- hot

september- scary

october- messed up

november- cool


now pick the color shirt you have on

pink- cupcake sales person

blue- hooker

red- bartender

green- Celebrity

purple- Mc Donalds worker

white- slut

yellow- taxi driver

black- chef

orange- homeless

gray- stipper

no shirt- millionare

other- toe nail clipper

LAST...the day you were born

1- that loves food

2- that hates kids

3- that needs attention

4- that is a murderer

5- who sucks at reading

6- who strips to pay for bills

7- who kills kids

8- who goes to dunkin donuts everyday

9- that loves laguna beach

10- that is OCD with something

11- that is cheating on someone for $$

12- who never brushes their hair

13- who licks peoples toes

14- who loves his gf/bf

15- that wants to be in love

16- who is secretly bi

17- that is a whore

18- who is anorexic

19- that wants a vibrator

20- that owns two chinese fighting fish

21- that wants to have chinese food

22- that is obsessed with hi5

23- who loves cats

24- who wants sex

25- who is a bookworm

26- who will never have sex

27- who is a drug addict

28- who will live to be 121

29- who takes naked pictures of themselves

30- who will stay in the same place forever

31- who needs to brush their teeth

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Time Well Spent

Well, Brandy got here last week right on schedule. Her and I have hung out a few times. I feel sort of bad for her right now though. She is living at the hotel until she can get into her apartment on the first. She has pretty much nothing to do from the time she gets off work until she goes to bed. I would gladly hang out with her more, but I’ve been working evenings. Between that and Adrienne being busy with Chris most evenings, Brandy is going bored out of her mind. Saturday, she called me at work at 10pm and asked me to come visit her after work. We wound up chatting until a little after 3am. We seem to get along really well, which is cool especially with Adrienne leaving in a few months. I figure I’ll see if she wants to hang out the next couple days because I have a few morning shifts and a day off. I have to make her like me quick before she gets her apartment and doesn’t need anyone to occupy her free time anymore (just kidding)

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Unhappy Thoughts

For as long as I can remember, I’ve always said I wanted to wait until I was older to have kids. I figured that late twenties or early thirties was a good time. At that age, I would get to live life without kids both before I have them and after they move out. At the same time I wouldn’t be too young and immature to be raising a child, nor would I be too old to do things with a kid.

A coworker and I where discussing this the other day, and she says to me… “But your parents are old, don’t you worry that if you wait to have kids they won’t be alive to see it” I tried to laugh the comment off by saying “My other sisters have given them grandkids, I’m not depriving them” to that my coworker says “Yeah, but it sounds like you’re close with your parents, don’t you want your kids to have a chance to get to know them and have a relationship with them?”

Now why the heck did she have to go and say something like that?

Believe it or not, that perspective on things hadn’t really occurred to me. If I ever happened to have thoughts of my parents not being around to see me have kids, I always passed it off by reminding myself that they already have 3 grandkids, so it’s not like I would be depriving them of that privilege.

My parents are great parents and great grandparents, and I can only hope that my children get a chance to find that out for themselves, not just through stories passed down.

I don’t deal well with thoughts of my parents mortality. Any time I think about it, I in all honesty come very close to having an anxiety attack. It makes me wish I was closer to home.

Sunday, March 12, 2006

Growing Up

I was talking to my nephew Scott online tonight. I have a picture of me holding him in the hospital when he was just days old. I was 9, just a few months shy of 10, when he was born. Logically, I am aware that the math put his at 15 years old. However, the auntie in me, just can’t believe that my nephew is 15 freakin years old. The kid is over 6 feet tall! When the hell did that happen? Ok ok, so I’ve been gone for 3 years, but geez.

It’s the same thing with my other two nephews, I haven’t seen them in a couple of years now, and when I got the pictures from Christmas I couldn’t believe how big they have gotten.

It makes me homesick. Being so far away from my entire family, I’m missing so much.