Points to Ponder

I'm in a little bit of shock today. I was talking to Kyle today, when he announced, rather flippantly, that he has decided he is never having children. Apparently, observing his friends children has brought him to the conclusion that kids are noisy, annoying and expensive.



I'm sure that the behavior has nothing to do with the source of the offspring. The one chick is on kid 3, with guy 3, before age 15 and has a habit of ditching the kids with whoever she can whenever she can. The other couple with kids, is married, he is bisexual, they are both permitted to fool around with other people as long as there is no vaginal intercourse, and they have on at least one occasion, left their kid with grandma and grandpa in order to attend an orgy.



Now me, I want children. In fact, it is number 56 on my list of things about me. Until Kyle told me he never wants them, and I was forced to think about how I felt about that fact, I never realized how important it is to me to have kids. However, I can't coerce, force, trick, or guilt Kyle into having kids. He would just wind up resenting me for it in the end.



So, I guess him and I have to discuss the matter, and both of us have some thinking to do. He has to consider how serious he is about never wanting kids, and I have to consider how important it is to me to have them.



The part that sucks the most, is that we can't even talk about it for a while, because our schedules just don't match up correctly. So, in the mean time, I will think, panic, stress, freak out and think some more. Good fun.

Never Mind

We're not moving after all. Turns out the landlord was just pissy about a high hydro bill. Well it wouldn't be so high if they would fix our fucking furnace so we didn't have to use electric heat. But anyways, he calmed down and said if we started paying half the hydro we could stay. Since rent is on 300 total, we're staying.

On The Move

Our landlords have decided that it's too much work for them to run this place as well as their other property. So, they want to hire a farm hand. The farm hand, would get to live where we live now. That means we have to find a new home.



This sucks!



The one bright side to all this, is that we're going to move closer to both my sisters work and mine. The money we save on gas each month, will make up for the extra we have to pay in rent.

Weekend (Sorta)

I had an awesome “weekend”. I don’t care what days of the week I have off, it’s my weekend. I went and stayed a couple nights at my sisters for her birthday, and got not nearly enough sleep. The first night I was there, I wound up staying up until after 1am, then woke up around 7:30 and was up for the day. Last night I stayed up until after midnight playing video games with my nephew and had to get up to come to work at 6:30. I feel just a wee bit tired today. I got “enough” sleep, but not as much as I usually do.



Yesterday, Lori and I pretty much just chilled. We hung around the house, watched TV, surfed the net and chatted. After Scott got home from school, the three of us went out for dinner. It was really good food. Would have been even better if Scott had have paid attention to prices and not ordered a $28 entrée. His came to more than Lori and mine did combined! Shesh, teenagers! Hehe We all made ourselves a bit ill after eating a entire 8” Ice Cream Cake from DQ.



Scott and I get along pretty good, and both like video games and trying to kick each others ass at snowboarding and surfing etc. This is a very good thing since at the end of the month I’ll be staying with him for a few days while Lori goes out of town for Christmas shopping.



I got some pretty freakin’ awesome news today when I got to work. Made having to work while being ass tired all worth while. Work did a 50/50 draw to raise money for the first ever set of conjoined twins born in British Columbia. I won! I actually bloody won! I never win anything, I’m so stoked. I got $300!



I have to say, that between spending time with some of my family on my days off, and getting a $300 return on my $5 investment…. I had a pretty damn good weekend.



The only bad news I have today, is that I feel like shit. Not “didn’t get enough sleep” bad, but sick bad. My throat is killing me, I looked in the mirror in the bathroom and my throat is all swollen, my uvula is actually sitting on the back of my tongue. It kills every time I swallow. However, on the bright side, $300 will buy me lots of lozenges!

So I Was Wondering........

At work, I sit near Timbra, Barika and Kyle. On his break, Kyle was talking to Timbra and made some comment about activities of a sexual nature with another guy. Now this is not the first such comment I have heard. So, at lunch, I asked Timbra if Kyle was gay. She said she didn't think so, because he'd seemed to really enjoy it when she took him to the female stippers a couple months back. Barika agreed that she didn't think he was gay either. However, neither of them was possitive.



After lunch, I was the first one back, so it was just Kyle and I at out cubicle block. So I ask 'Hey Kyle, you're not gay are you?' Turns out he isn't, but the whole situation and his reaction was rather hillarious. When Timbra came back from lunch he points at her and goes 'ask Timbra' so I tell him 'I did, she said she didn't think so'. Poor Timbra had no clue what was going on when he gaped at her and said 'you don't THINK so?' I told him that he should just be glad I asked instead of assuming he was gay and telling everyone.



Of course, being the kind of guy he is, he made jokes about his being gay all the rest of the shift. He seemed to get a kick out of telling just about everyone that I'd asked him if he was gay.

I Robot

So, I got bored the other day, and messaged a few random people on ICQ. One of these people actually responded. User ID GGC which I have decided means that his name is Gustav Giuseppe Cokamukalik. Anyways, Gustav and I talked for a bit, he asked me what I did for fun, one of the things I responded with was reading. So, he asked me if I had read any good books recently. I told him I had recently read, the DaVinci Code, as well as Cradle and All. He indicated that he too had read DaVinci Code and enjoyed it and asked me about the other book. All in all it was a rather normal conversation. After a bit, we ran into an issue I've had before on ICQ.... I wasn't getting all his messages. It's a glitch I've noticed with ICQ, if someone is not on my contact list, I don't always get their messages. So, since I was enjoying the conversation, and getting annoyed by the glitch, I sent a request to add him.



He declined!



He said it was nothing personal, but that he was leery of adding bots to his ICQ list.... Bot? I come across as a bot? I mentioned this to someone else I was chatting with, and he speculated that Gustav was most likely confused by the fact that I use full sentences and relatively good grammar when chatting. I don't use the common net speak or lots of abbreviations. I start sentences with capital letter, I use commas and I end a sentence with a period. Anyways, the part I found the most odd, was that he said he wouldn't add me because he was relatively sure that I was a robot giving automated responses based on what he typed.... however he was “happy to keep talking” if I wanted.



So we talk for a while longer, about my work and his work etc. I use every chance possible to throw in a joke about me being a robot! After a while he asks me to do him a favor and go to a website and tell him what is written in the last balloon. He doesn't say as much, but I'm pretty sure that this is my final “are you a robot” test. Well the website doesn't come through, because I don't receive links from people not on my list, so I tell him that he has to disguise the fact that it's a link. He tells me to go to dieselsweeties with a 3x w and a dot com. I go to the site, which is a web comic and then type into the chat window “I'm still most of a person” he responds with “well most is good I guess lol” Then goes on with the conversation, so I'm like “um that was the line you wanted, the last balloon on the page” to which he replies “Okay, here's the thing, it isn't”



So I go back to the page and look, and nope, there are no more balloons anywhere on the page. I assure him that it is in fact the text from the last balloon. I tell him “there is a red head and a brunette talking about drinking, and red is drunk and brun. is giving her a hard time about it, and then in the last balloon red says “I'm still most of a person””



It's a bit before he says anything again. When finally he does he says “Wow do I have egg on my face” As it turns out, in the time between him checking the site, and me getting there, they updated to the new days cartoon!!! So a minute before when he was there, the last balloon read “More like the Quixoti Narcotic” but by the time I got to the newly updated site, the last balloon was “I am still most of a person”



I thought that was hilarious! What are the odds of that? I joked that he was a jackass, and he added me to his contact list haha.



That's what he gets for saying I have the conversational skills of an automated response program! hehe

My 100 Things

It's been a long time since I've updated my list of 100 things about me. In fact, I don't think I've actually done one on this particular site. Now, I would like all 3 of you who are reading this, that unlike most people I did not cheat. I notice a lot of people will use up 2 or 3 numbers to tell one thing. Pussies! Actually, I found it surprisingly easy to come up with this list. Not actually easy, but a lot easier than I expected, and a lot easier than it was last time. Anyways, here ya go.



1.My name is Erin

2.I'm a girl

3.I'm 25

4.I'm engaged

5.I live with my sister

6.I live in British Columbia

7.My fiancée lives in Manitoba.

8.I work for eBay

9.I love my job

10.I'm on the pessimistic side of realistic

11.Despite the above, I'm still hopeful about most things

12.I have no pets

13.I don't want any pets

14.I don't smoke

15.I don't do drugs

16.I do drink, but not often

17.I'm medicated for depression

18.I spent a lot of years trying to just “snap out of it”

19.I am not racist

20.I care what other people think of me

21.I do not think I am beautiful

22.I think I have a good sense of humor

23.I think I am smart

24.I am shy until I know you

25.I love movies

26.I almost always have music playing

27.I'm messy

28.I hate to clean

29.I like to cook

30.I like to bake

31.I can be a hypocrite

32.My friends are very important to me

33.I love to get mail.

34.If I could go back and change anything... I wouldn't

35.In some ways I am very emotional

36.In some ways I am very cold

37.I am nocturnal

38.I prefer to work mornings

39.I have no holiday spirit

40.Sometimes, I will stand my ground when I know I am wrong

41.I like bored games

42.I like to talk

43.I like to listen

44.I love long conversations

45.I hate having my words twisted

46.I used to speak French

47.I can find something beautiful about most people

48.I can be very passive aggressive

49.I find women to be very attractive, however I am in no way sexually attracted to them

50.I wish I was rich

51.I like the color green

52.I like the color of my hair

53.I am diabetic

54.I am very open

55.I hate keeping secrets

56.Someday, I want children

57.I like getting to know about new people

58.Stupidity annoys me

59.Naivety makes me smile

60.The people I care about the most in the world, know it

61.I tend to mask hurt feelings with humor

62.I have no negative feelings towards Americans as a people

63.I have a tongue ring

64.I have a tattoo

65.The only jewelery I wear consistently is my engagement ring

66.I love accents

67.I feel that online conversation is completely different with someone who's voice you have heard

68.I spend too much time on the Internet, and I'm okay with that.

69.I like to read

70.I miss my fiancée a lot

71.I take out my frustration on my fiancée even though I know better

72.I believe that everyone deserves to be loved

73.I believe most people deserve a second chance

74.I am not necessarily opposed to capital punishment

75.I have been working, successfully, on controlling my temper

76.I am generous

77.If I won enough money, nobody I care about would have any debt left.

78.I am having a small wedding

79.I am not wearing white because I think I will look ugly

80.I love to swim

81.I hate crowds

82.I would rather have 3 great friends than 100 acquaintances

83.I am disorganized

84.I am compulsive about certain things

85.I have a good vocabulary

86.I love television

87.One of my very good friends is someone I have never met in person.... yet!

88.I love helping people

89.I have 3 sisters

90.I have 3 nephews

91.My parents are still happily married after 44 years

92.I have no religious affiliation

93.I believe in God

94.I think I am a good person

95.I am often dry and sarcastic

96.I am drawn to people who have a similar sense of humor to mine

97.I'm bad at returning phone calls

98.I like to multi task

99.I like giving and receiving gifts without a special occasion

100.I need to know people love me in order to be happy

Happy Birthday to Me

Well, it's official, I'm a quarter of a century old today. Perhaps it is a sign of maturity that I would rather stay home and have a quite evening with my family than go to the bar or to the casino or to strippers.



Bwahahahahaha Okay, anyone who bought that doesn't know me very well at all! Or know that staying home with my family is usually anything but quiet. Especially if you get my older sister Lori and I together. She was here last weekend for Thanksgiving, and we where both laughing until we had tears running down our faces. The rest of my family is pretty fun too. A couple weeks ago, I lent Lori, Season One of Desperate Housewives. At dinner, we're talking about it, and she asks me if I have Sex in the City also. Our conversation had been kind of excluding everyone else, at the mention of Sex in the City, my dad takes the opportunity to pitch in by saying “I don't remember, but I know I had sex in a tent once”. I threw a piece of broccoli at him!



The other truth is that if Adrienne was up in this area, we'd have used my recent days off to go out and get absolutely sloshed. She'd hit on sexy... hot... cute... mildly attractive... random guys, and I'd admire hot guys from a distance like the faithful finacee that I am.

Time for an Update

The first several weeks at my job where tiring. Lots of classroom training and a ton of information to try and absorb. Not to mention the whacked out schedule that flip flopped around.



Week 1 – 6:30am – 3pm

Week 2 – 3:30pm – Midnight

Week 3 – 9am – 5:30pm

Week 4 – 7:30am – 4pm



Now, thankfully, I have settled into my permanent shift. 7:30am – 4pm will be my shift until the next shift bid, in 3 months. When the shift bid comes up, the order of priority is based on a combination of our Attendance, Performance (how many customers we can help per hour), Customer Satisfaction, Quality (they grade 5 of our customer interactions per week) and Availability (How much of our shift we are at our desk ready to help customers). I'm a little nervous about the shift bid in 3 months. If I'm not doing well enough by then, I have up to as many as 50 people to contend with to get the shift I want. I have no doubts in my ability to be successful at this job, I'm just not secure in my belief that I will be good enough to get my preferred shift.



In other news, my car has been shit kicked. My sister was leaving my parents house in my dads truck, and she just hopped in the tore into revers without looking, without bothering to see that my car was parked where it always is, at the back of the driveway behind my dads truck. Plenty of room to go around... if you look. She hit my car so hard that it pushed it back a foot. The whole front was crumpled in. The major piss off about my car is the fact that now my front end is punched in, and since this winter my taillight is busted, but I didn't do either thing. My taillight was hit by someone last winter while I was parked at home, and my sister ran into my front end. Now, people see me driving this beat up car and probably wonder what the hell I hit, but I wasn't even NEAR my car for either incident. Oh well, my car is in at the body shop getting fixed right now, which means I have the joy of driving around my dads work truck. This thing is from the 70s or 80s, it's standard and it's HUGE. I pulled up to a building yesterday, and I got a little closer than I meant to, I kinda blocked anyone from walking around in front of my truck, well, then I get out of the truck and turns out I was about 4 feet from the building! Damn I'm not used to driving something so damn big!



My sister and I have been getting along pretty good, which is a big change from the last time we lived together. In the past few years we've both changed a lot. Celexa has mellowed me out, and GOD has mellowed her out. I see my parents a couple times a week, and have dinner at their house on Thursdays. It's so nice to be around my family again. My sister and nephew are coming out for Thanksgiving this weekend, I'm looking forward to that.



I'm working on talking Adrienne into moving up here. I figure I'll win eventually, since the only reason she gives to not move is “I can't afford it”. Eventually she'll be able to afford it. The way I see it, here, she is still close enough to drive home, it's prettier here, the weather is better here, I'm here, there is lots of work here, and she could save more money because her bills wouldn't be as high. I talked her into moving to Fort St. John while being honest with her about how much it sucked ass. Talking her into moving someplace nice should be easier!



Well, that's about it for now.